You Can't Save Me ((Yugo,Mature))

"You'd...be ok with that?" Shen blinked. Feeling her finger run across his lips his tongue came out and gently caressed it. God..how long has it been since he had felt such passion? Shen figured maybe it would be ok to indulge...at least for a little while. He looked at her returning her kiss. His warm tongue slid along her bottom lip begging for entry into her mouth. His fingers gently traced up along her legs towards the hem of her pj shorts.

Kathrine looked at him with a soft blush on her cheeks as he pulled away. She smiled and lightly pressed the tip of her finger against his lips. "It can be our secret....no one else needs to know" She said softly. She moved her finger from his lips and pressed her own against them once more, her body leaning into his own as a light smile crossed her lips against the kiss

Shen could feel it too. His heart was racing inside of his chest. The minutes seemed to turn into hours. Shen swore he could have spent all night simply kissing her. When he pulled back from her lips his face was completely flushed. "Um...sorry." he whispered, his eyes shifting away from her. "I'm your teacher...that...that was inappropriate." he whispered, his eyes closing. Suddenly, he looked at up at her though, his finger gently tracing over her lips as he smiled. "Though...I suppose technically...we've already crossed that line...several times in fact."

Kathrine's heart was racing. Of all the forced kisses she had ever experienced....this was her first real kiss...He was the only one who ever gave her room to comply to his advances. Her fingers slid through his hair and she shivered as his arms wrapped around her waist. Why hadnt he come into her life sooner...why did he have to be her teacher...as well as eight years older than her....

Shen pulled her into his body. This was the kiss he had been waiting for. His hands gently caressed her cheeks before dropping down to wrap around her waist. He moved slightly so he was sitting on the floor now, his back pressed against the living room coffee table. Shen moaned softly against her lips. There was something different from the last time he had kissed during his use of the pill. There was less lust, but ten times more electricity.

Kathrine looked up at him as he talked, smiling as his arms hugged her, but when he pulled away slightly her face saddened and she looked down but closed her eyes and smiled. "It's okay...I know you dont..." She blinked, her words catching in her throat as his fingers slid along her skin. Her hues softened as he drew close, she smiled and pressed her lips to his, closing her eyes as her arms wrapped around his neck

Shen looked at her blinking twice. He just couldn't figure her out. If she had been sad why hadn't she showed it? Maybe he just hadn't noticed. He watched as she slid into his lap while wrapping her arms around him. His own arms instantly wrapped around her holding her close. "No..I-I dont mind. I want you to be able to depend on me. I...Kate..." Shen whispered though paused and looked off to the side. What was he doing?! He was the last person who had a right to be happy, who had a right to fall for someone. Shen pulled back from her a bit. His hands were gripping her shoulders as he stared up into her eyes. Suddenly, Shen began to gently trace his finger tips up along her cheeks. He cupped them gently, his lips drawing closer and closer to her own as he closed his eyes.

"Thats not true....I was really sad when you told me to sleep in my room" She said and put the tea on the table. She slid off the couch and wrapped her arms around him, nuzzling her face against his chest. "I already know what it feels like to lose everything....to be beaten and abused...thats why no matter the outcome... I want to take advantage of feeling happy like I am right now" She said and rested her head on his chest. "So...I'm sorry If I seem a bit needy and dependant on you...I've just...never been able to depend on someone else before.."

"No no its fine." Shen replied softly, though didn't move just yet. "Listen...I know that you probably didn't care when I told you it would be best to sleep alone...but...maybe at least for tonight we can break that rule? I mean...I need to sleep...and so do you. I only told that was best because...b-because I didn't want to lose sight of my objective. This isn't a vacation. If something goes wrong with my plan because I'm not focused you could get end up getting seriously hurt.."

Kathrine blinked and looked down at him as he leaned in front of her. "You...came to check on me?" She asked softly. She smiled and leaned forward so her forehead leaned against him. "Yes... I'm alright.... I always feel better when your near" She said and sat up. "Sorry for making you worry" She said and then lightly sipped her tea

"No well...I..." Shen paused and looked down as he took a knee in front of her. "I couldn't sleep...so I wanted to check on you." he whispered softly as his long dark hair slid over his shoulders and down his bare chest. His hands came to gently run over her thighs. He wouldn't bother asking her the details of her dream. "Are you ok now?" he asked, his soft brown eyes now looking up into her own.

Kathrine hid her face against his chest as he calmed her. Her breathing calmed and became normal, her body's trembling became less and less. She sat on the couch, rubbing her arms, watching him as he went to the kitchen. When he came back she took the tea and looked down. "Sorry....I didnt think I was that loud during my nightmares" She said, think it was her cries that had awoken him from sleeping

Shen couldn't believe just how strong her push was. He couldn't help but wonder if her nightmare had came as a result of him asking her to sleep alone. "No..thats not the problem. She had one the other night too. Its not me...its what was done to her..." Shen thought to himself as he locked his arms around her body and lightly rocked her back and forth. "Its ok Katherine. You're with me. Its just the two of us..." He whispered against her ear. His nose lightly nuzzled into her neck. "You're fine Kate. It was just a dream..it was just a dream..." Shen whispered softly and scooped her up into his arms. He carried her into the kitchen and placed her body onto the couch. For a moment, he pulled away from her and walked into the kitchen. When he came back he had a hot mug of lemon tea ready for her.

As he grabbed her, in her dream another man was grabbing her. "N-NO! L-let go!" She cried, pushing her hands against his chest, pushing him away. She he shouted at her to wake up and shook her, her eyes slowly opened before she blinked, quickly looking around the room. She let out a shaky breath, her body still lightly trembling. From reflex she leaned against him closed her eyes, letting out another slow shaky breath

Shen walked up and placed his ear to the door. He could hear her cries all the way through the door. He immediately opened the door and rushed over to her side of the bread. Shen's eyes scanned her body. Her nightmare must have been pretty intense from the way her body was trembling. "Katherine wake up!" Shen yelled and shook her shoulders. "Katherine you're just dreaming. Its not real." he stated and continued to lightly shake her hoping that she'd be able to hear his voice.

Kathrine had fallen asleep after an hour or so. But as she slept, her nightmares returned quickly. She was flinching and jumping as she slept, small whimpers passing her lips as she tossed and turned, crying out softly. "N-no....stop..." she muttered as she rolled onto her side. She was dreaming her uncle had found out about Shen's plan and took her back, as punishment for lying, he wound up inviting ALL his clients for her to have their way with her as many times as they wanted, some not bothering to wait for another to finish before they took her in more uncomfortable places. She choked out in her sleep crying as he body trembled. "P-p-ple...eas...s....st....op" she cried, her hands gripping the sheets so hard her knuckles were turning white

Shen was laying in his bed. He had already set his alarm clock to wake him around 7am. He had allot to do the next morning which included getting a room ready for Kate to stay in for the day. He closed his eyes trying to relax himself. After a few hours his eyes shot open. "Fuck." he grumbled while turning onto his slide. He couldn't sleep at all. Shen refused to believe that it was all because of Kate though. He had slept just fine before the past 2 days. What had changed? "Maybe...I'll just go check on her..." he whispered and grabbed some sweat pants. He made his way down stairs through the darkness of his apartment and slowly walked towards her door.

Kathrine was sulking... she had liked getting to sleep next to Shen... she felt so safe around him. She didnt understand what the problem was. Was he that uncomfortable with her liking him, even though she knew he felt nothing like that about her? She had been hurt so many times in her life, that being rejected...didnt really bother her that much, but she had been hoping she could have at least continued to cuddle with him and feel safe as she slept. When he came in wishing her good night she glanced up from the book. "Night..." She said. She knew he wouldnt be able to tell she was sad... he was too dense. But when he had made the request she sleep in 'her' bed tonight...well...she had no right to argue there.

When he left the room she shut the book and put in on the desk, going to the drier and pulled out the comforter she had been waiting dry it out completely. She walked back to the room with it and laid down, wrapping the blanket around her and shut her eyes....She was warm...but...she didnt have that same secure feeling she had, had the last two nights.

Shen blinked twice. He had expected more of a reaction from Kate. She had told him that she liked him...or was it that she 'thought' she liked him? Maybe she didn't care at all. If that was the case Shen should have been happy...right? He spent the rest of the night reading on the couch as Kate washed her sheets. Once 10pm rolled around he got up and walked up to the doorway of her room. "Sorry I dont have more sheets. I'll buy some soon." he promised her and looked down at the ground. He couldn't describe how he felt at the moment and it didn't help that Kate had agreed to sleep alone pretty quickly. "Good night Kate." Shen finally whispered before turning to walk back towards the kitchen. He made his way up stairs and into his room where he untied his pony tail and changed into something to sleep in.

Kathrine was about to take a bite when she heard Shen and looked at him. "Oh...a-alright" Shes said softly. She put the fork down and sat quietly for a moment before getting up and walking to the kitchen slowly. She started doing up the dishes without saying a word. When she finished she walked into 'her room and stripped the beds sheets once again, and put them in the wash. She opened the window in the room to once again let scent of their musk air out. She grabbed one of the random books that sat on the book shelf in her room and began to read, laying on the bare bed as she waited to switch the load to the drier.

Shen withdrew his face from his hands. He looked over at Kate smiling lightly as he took the fork. He cut himself a few small pieces, but stopped eating soon after. "Kate I think tonight you should sleep in 'your' room. I enjoy having you by my side at night...but at this point I just think that would be best." he replied softly

Kathrine blinked as he just handed her the plate without fuss. She watched as he went over to the couch. she grabbed to forks and walked over and sat next to him. "Here" She said and handed him a fork. "I said we can split it. Theres no way I can eat it by myself" She said with a smile. She left some space between them and set the plate on the coffee table, taking a bite of the cake. "Hm... its so good" she said with a happy sigh

Shen got more of a view then what he would have liked. His face turned a darker shade of red as dirty thoughts began to fill his mind. He snapped his eyes shut and quickly shook his head. "Damnit! It must be the wine..." he thought to himself. This wasn't good. Shen felt...ashamed for having such thoughts towards his student. He needed to fix their relationship before it was too late and she ended up getting hurt. Sighing deeply, he handed her the plate and walked over to the couch. He sat there with his head in his hands. "How the hell do I fix this..." he muttered to himself. He had to do soemthing. He knew that he couldn't have her and save her at the same time. Even IF he could...there was still Shen's own past that needed dealing with.

"Come on, no way! You cant finish that all by yourself" She said, grabbing his arm with one hand while still reaching with the other. "I'm not short, your too tall!" She said. She looked up at him with soft eyes and a pout as she wrapped her arms around his waist. "Please? Can we share?" She asked, waring a black tank top, and pressing her chest against his, gave him a nice view of her cleavage

"Wha???? Thats so boring..." Shen frowned and purposely lifted the small plate high above her reach. He hadn't expected her to suddenly press her body into his though. The light tint that had stained his cheeks became darker...much darker. He honestly didn't know where to look. She was his student..hell they shouldn't have even been in such a situation in the first place. "Mm no I think I'll just eat it myself." Shen chuckled and a made a move to escape, but she had him trapped against the fridge. "H-Hey...move it shorty.."